Yup!

Ny..Ny..for new years..YAY!!!

My saturday..

worked ....checked!


my girls are awesome!


that movie ....i will never see again, i shiver just thinking about it! shits crazy!

today was a very good day, i haven't had this much excitement, laughing moments in awhile..

snippets on my week..

All week i've been thinking about my class, how will i accomplish my midterm, how will i OWNED my midterm, the test has officially been open to the class today. I've been trying to get some study time in the past few days, the only day that i've succeeded was sunday when i made myself go to the parental units, in my old room, my old bed to study. As the days gone by i've conluded my self with a slight disorder of add. The fact that i can't get comfortable to study in my new room should be no excuse for not finishing the intended goal right? But i simply cannot study if im not comfortable. ahh. going on


The thought of marriage,kids,relationship,weddings,has been on my mind lately. It seems more now that these topics has been the talk amongs my friends. I think its because we are our primes, its these times that we are suppose to be going off and getting hitched. Ironically, im no where even close to the M word,nor the kids corner. Im still trying to get through school and getting in shape..haha

As bad of a writer as i am, i sure love to read. The fact that the assumptions that most asians are smart, im far from that. I love to learn, im not a perfectionist, i don't strive for A's, Im perfectly content as a B sometime C student. But don't grades fool you. The smartest people sometimes won't always show their geniusity through grades. I think people make up that part in being wise.

I've finally busted out my scarf. yep, it hit the 40 marks this morning. I love fall.

i'll come back for more randoms next time..

so desu ne..

i miss learning nihon.
although, i have been out of the loop of learning hiragana, kanji and katakana.
I know i won't survive the basic convo with a native if i were to talk to one. I can recall when i had a layover in tokyo, i tried to speak to the clerks and ask them "what time is it" , I can remember how they looked at me, i thought ok maybe the didn't hear me, so i repeated myself but this time i had motion towards my wrist as if i was pointing to a watch. They replied in japanese which i was giddy, but than i thought, i think my japanese suck. All that learning with my sensei in class. To try to speak of a simple phrase, made me very conscious of what i was saying. In fact, i was discourage..
So after only taking one semester of japanese, do you guys ever consider yourself of "speaking" japanese. If people asked you what languages you speak? Would it be ok to tell people that even though you've only had 5 months of basic japanese?

The excitment keeps coming...

Im officially a maid of honor for a wedding for a good friend of mine. As excited as i am. I feel pressure, I've brought the task on me. I love the two friends of mine whom are getting married next year. But i was just thinking of the extravagent bachlorette party, the speech. Oh my, wow...how am i going to deliver a speech. When i can barely utter words that has enable my fellow coworkers to understand me because of my braces..haha. I'm a mumbler...:/ and btw i really want to have dates for these festivity. Gosh, hmmm

so many things...

little time to do it.

Literally,Its been a month now since school has been in session. Im still trying to find that median. With two jobs,and only 6 hours of course study. I figured i could handle it. In the midst of that,im lazy, i have laundry coming out of no where. Bills that i really want to get rid of,and still try to fit in some me time. But this is what i signed up for when i took on that second job. It's suppose to make me more responsible on time management. Also, strengthen my study time. I'm 25 and i know i can do this.I need to tune out the distraction and stop acting like i'm add. haha. My goal for the week, keep my room tidy (which is so unlike me to not be. ;) ), sign my ass to the gym before my rear gets any bigger, STUDY,SERIOUSLY, I refuse to falter.

Oh..

the weather is crisp! Its fall season coming in, I am loving it! My second job offers a very nice view of trees and a bit of hill action from my desk. The only thing i can complain about is that i go in and its dark, i leave my second job and its DARK. Also, i lose motivation in school, yup. oh man..

So what i look forward to the fall is...

- SCARVES,SCarf, and S C A R F ...=)
- Coats
- Grey's coming back
- Dwts is also back

So the bestie has finally decided upon her nuptials with her beau of over 5 years. It went from a 2 year planning to 1 year left ,to a 6 months of planning left. So much to do ,so much that i for one am freaking out. If theres any tips to getting in shape.haha and trying to keep organize throught this, since we both our busy with school,work and me trying to keep her relax leading up to her day. ..Boys,men really have it so much easier than we girls.

for the geeky hearts

Isn't he a beauty!


Honestly, one of the things on my to do list is to take photography. I've discovered this Leica m8 awhile back ago. I must admit i've heard alot about this brand. So i checked it out. Im in LOVE, im not anything professional by any lens. In fact im so amateur my niece makes me look like a tard with the camera. But this oh my, if i can get my hands on this. i would be taking pictures for free. lol

i am loving this weekend!

Friday -

I took off at job numero uno, I love how i slepted in past 7 am. I can't recall how long it has been since i've done that. Yes i can, it was sometime in mid june before i got job numero 2. I can't remember what i did that day till i had to go in for the other job. But i love it! I should of done some studying. But i know i was not doing that because i was not prepared for my test today.

Today, is another blissful morning. I say blissful since i've enjoyed "Time" today. That is something im always pressed for. Im still trying to learn my time in everything. Although, im ridiculously tired of working 2 jobs. I can't let it go just yet, I also shouldn't give them a reason to let me go just yet. Its my income, its my purse,shoes,travel sugar daddy that provides for all that..hahah
I love these kind of weekends that i seldom ever get now-a-days because i always get these realization of gratefulness. On to other things, i went to the movies, saw nine. I've never seen a cartoon at the movies, this one was very different. It was enlightning,educational, and dark.

Tonight, I went to a benefit event at the casino with my good friends. I decided to go up there a little early to try my luck at the slots. Thankfully i broke even. I would have kicked my self in the ass for losing that kind of money. So we went to the event, Lots,lots and i mean lots of vendors passing out free samples of beer,wine, and food. O-m-g, if you have a sweet tooth you should of went here. Im glad i didn't indulge hahah. Ironically, im not a dessert gal. I did however tried the fondue, and i notice a camera flash and boy was i quick to step back. I was told to go ahead it was going to be publish. Just great! a picture of myself trying out the fondue. Aye.. Oh then there was the burlesque show. I've never seen one until tonight. I must it was quite entertaining. I got a good laugh with my friends, one of the dancers , her tassel on one of her boobies fell off. poor thing.

That was my night, Im feeling REFRESH!

August Blueesss

Its has been months since i've blog. Im very busy now-days. 2 jobs as well as going to school. Im trying to find a happy medium.
I don't know if im loosing my mind trying to be patient to get through radiology school. Im still pondering if i should wait and apply for the Ou program or the Tcc route in which i know their curriculum, the professors. If i go through the Ou program, which im excited about and even harder to get into than Tcc's program, i would graduate with a bachelors versus another associates at Tcc. Im taking my mood day by day. I've notice my mood swings have been hype lately. Im sure its from the lack of sleep,the lack of feeling that accomplishment that im slowly but surely underway, of course the typical BILLS,and why am i working 2 jobs again with nothing to show for? The longing to go to the philippines for a long vacation and spend time with the cousins,seeing one of my favorite tita's who decided to move back to the motherland to retire who i also missed dearly,And lastly, im 25 and im not in love. I need a change, i need someone to inspire me back into the person i need to be. I will feel 100x better if i lost 80 lbs of chub chub haha gaahh i really have cultivated into that american kid. eeewww

Finally went out this past weekend to my friends wedding/bachelorette party which i finally let loose, drank,played games with the girls, went to the club. Little did i realize how drunk i got. I just saw the pictures which honestly to say, i have some beautiful,fabulous, hot - ass girl friends. Then there was me, the fat girl. oh the picture really did disgust me. I could cry, i cringed looking at it. I really need to just dig inside me and find the will to get through my plans or else im never going to get anywhere or accomplish what i really want to do.May god help me! Even when i went back to the p.i. im still surrounded by my beautiful cousins,couple of friends. Yet i felt that i was never the typical small girl. I've always been athletic growing up, than i hit the age of 17 and i discovered by boys. Small frame bodies should never be B-i-G.
Its time to really do something, i can't handle it. Im going to kick this thing in the ass, like jillian in the biggest loser show..

I need words of encouragement!

Thank you, this was my rant!

April Showers!

The weather has been beautimous the last couple of days. So i've purposley been staying home as much as i can take on weeks when i would generally be spending money on things i should not waste my money. So an old friend came in from cali. I was coherese to just go ahead and go out for the night, since i don't ever see him that often. Hanging out with the boys means getting everyone together that i use to hang out with. Along with my brother,he's girl,he's best friend and so forth. This would also mean that i would hang out with a close friends ex-factor,and baby's daddy. No problem. Im cool with these boys, i love em like a fat kid loves cake. They're just the type of boys that you hang out,play video games with and be entertain the whole time with their random acts of goofiness. So, currently being a broke-ass due to the econimic state of our country , and my sad financial state. I refuse to spend money, hence i only had $15 in my wallet. How pathetic, but thanks for my oh so loving brother and he's girl for paying my cover charge and generous donations of a few drinks. hahah. I also have to thank the free ultra beer that the venue was giving away to girls. Which i've never had, quite bearable except it got really warm way to fast. So I chit-chatted with my brothers and he's friends outside enjoying a very nice breeze on a spring night. The rest of the boys finally got there. They did their pre-ritual of drinking at the house. Which i wish i could of gone. The music started getting hype. The dance floor starting getting pretty pack and the dancing starts. In which the highlight of my night also begins. Out of no-where the friends ex-factor and whom im cool with grabs my hands and we start dancing. This isn't the second time this has happen. Its happened awhile back which i refuse in the close engagement than. Only because it was awkward. I was also thinking about my friend. What would she think if she knew. Right? How considerate of me. Only a good friend would do. So this time around that thought came across. But its been 3-4 years, my friend has moved on to a new beau. And im going to call this fella "Pogi" has been in turmoil for the past 3 years hung up on my friend i've seen him on occasions how terrible he looked. But Im seeing hes starting to loosen up, finally moving on. Anyway, I shook the guilty feeling and just went ahead and dance with him. I thought " hey, whats one song". Well that one song turned into 8,9,10..and i lost count. Dancing in such close distant with him. In whichi made sure my jacket was between us. I wanted to make sure i didn't feel anything else..So i was having fun. Took pictures that i didn't initiate. So it all finally ended. The morning after came i didn't really think to much of the night before. Than i saw the pictures of us. I must admit it wasn't pretty. I mean i was sweaty looking, he was the same. We both had puffy eyes. But besides all that the more i looked at our pictures the more im amuse. In fact, you can even call it a crush now. I mean i probably sound like im reading more into it. I have to remember that alcohol was a factor on hes part majorly. But i really did have fun. I just can't shake the smile off my face. Its been a very very long time since i've smiled like this. But if there was a possibility of anything to ever happen (which would be slim to none). When is it okay to go for an ex-factor. Mind you that you are good friends with the ex. When is it okay to smile innocently for this guy?

A new day!

How great has this new year been already!

Our nation has finally seen a new day with a new president.
Im a proud supporter of President Barack Obama. I can honestly say, that
I've never been so intrigued by any other prospect democrats besides him. I've only had the chance to vote twice since i've turned 18. It gives me hope that someday, a woman, or an asian descent can one day be in his position.

So i've had alot of bumps and slumps, since i've last blogged.
I have so much things i want to do and accomplish i don't see whats keeping me back from it. Except, my finances which i've finally have ballsed up today and chop them.
I feel free..haha. No, its the time to finally get ahold of this. Its rediculous.

Im moving out, as soon as the brothers get a house. Yes, im sharing a house with my brothers. I can't be happier with anyone besides these two. Maybe its the whole trust issues. I mean i've seen friendships ruined because of living situations.

I have 4 more classes till i get my associates, that may not mean much to some people. But it means alot to me. Im slowly accomplishing my collegiate success one step at a time.