April Showers!

The weather has been beautimous the last couple of days. So i've purposley been staying home as much as i can take on weeks when i would generally be spending money on things i should not waste my money. So an old friend came in from cali. I was coherese to just go ahead and go out for the night, since i don't ever see him that often. Hanging out with the boys means getting everyone together that i use to hang out with. Along with my brother,he's girl,he's best friend and so forth. This would also mean that i would hang out with a close friends ex-factor,and baby's daddy. No problem. Im cool with these boys, i love em like a fat kid loves cake. They're just the type of boys that you hang out,play video games with and be entertain the whole time with their random acts of goofiness. So, currently being a broke-ass due to the econimic state of our country , and my sad financial state. I refuse to spend money, hence i only had $15 in my wallet. How pathetic, but thanks for my oh so loving brother and he's girl for paying my cover charge and generous donations of a few drinks. hahah. I also have to thank the free ultra beer that the venue was giving away to girls. Which i've never had, quite bearable except it got really warm way to fast. So I chit-chatted with my brothers and he's friends outside enjoying a very nice breeze on a spring night. The rest of the boys finally got there. They did their pre-ritual of drinking at the house. Which i wish i could of gone. The music started getting hype. The dance floor starting getting pretty pack and the dancing starts. In which the highlight of my night also begins. Out of no-where the friends ex-factor and whom im cool with grabs my hands and we start dancing. This isn't the second time this has happen. Its happened awhile back which i refuse in the close engagement than. Only because it was awkward. I was also thinking about my friend. What would she think if she knew. Right? How considerate of me. Only a good friend would do. So this time around that thought came across. But its been 3-4 years, my friend has moved on to a new beau. And im going to call this fella "Pogi" has been in turmoil for the past 3 years hung up on my friend i've seen him on occasions how terrible he looked. But Im seeing hes starting to loosen up, finally moving on. Anyway, I shook the guilty feeling and just went ahead and dance with him. I thought " hey, whats one song". Well that one song turned into 8,9,10..and i lost count. Dancing in such close distant with him. In whichi made sure my jacket was between us. I wanted to make sure i didn't feel anything else..So i was having fun. Took pictures that i didn't initiate. So it all finally ended. The morning after came i didn't really think to much of the night before. Than i saw the pictures of us. I must admit it wasn't pretty. I mean i was sweaty looking, he was the same. We both had puffy eyes. But besides all that the more i looked at our pictures the more im amuse. In fact, you can even call it a crush now. I mean i probably sound like im reading more into it. I have to remember that alcohol was a factor on hes part majorly. But i really did have fun. I just can't shake the smile off my face. Its been a very very long time since i've smiled like this. But if there was a possibility of anything to ever happen (which would be slim to none). When is it okay to go for an ex-factor. Mind you that you are good friends with the ex. When is it okay to smile innocently for this guy?