Another weekend gone by..

My weekend was very eventfull. I haven't had this kind of busy weekend in a very long time. I opted to stay home on friday night,instead of going to happy hour. I knew that i will need my energy for the rest of the weekend. Saturday, i woke up and got ready for Komen Cure for the race. It was my first time to go into a benefit awareness marathon. Even though it was only a 5k race. Yes, i did the un-timed one too. Im nowhere near the shape i should be to run a timed race..lol But it was for a good cause, and im glad i did it. I was walking around just seeing all these teams wearing t-shirts supporting that person they came out for. Later, After i rested i really felt my old age. I joined a candle party with my co-workers. Than, i headed to my friend rachels house to play some hard core fooseball. I had a blast .
So, Sunday rolls around. I went to church, got home and got to cleaning my aycar..Wowsers im happy. Its so fresh and so cleaned.. I went to Ms. Mjs birthday dinner, very fun. Than joined the rest of the fam bam for some din din..Im sure this paragraph is full of fragments and run-on sentence. Which i don't really care hahah..

Well good night, this was my weekend. oh yeah i didn't get to do any studying or laundry. blahh...

Back from East Coastin

So my little time spent away to the east has come to an end. I loved most of my time spent there. Three states in 4 days, goodness. I love Greenwhich,CT. It was very quaint. It means alot to see one of my fave relative. Though the condo was tiny, i thought it was very cozy. I felt very at home, but having a good hostess has alot to do with it. I also got to see the rich of the rich. Seriously, it was kick ass. I love my aunts employers house. I love how the train was minutes away to take to the city.

Ny Destination

-Serendipty
-Pinkberry
-Tiffany's
...mission accomplished.



Something suprising,

-I touched Shakespeare..really!
-finally felt what it would be like if i had that "life"
-not into the hustle n bustle of the city.
-loved SOHO
- Strawberry flavored hookahs, tried it in georgetown..Quite nice.
VA,DC

-Harris Teeters
-strange cab drivers
-Adams Morgan..wowsers
- Ghana Cafe..haha
- Biggest Pizza slice i've ever seen.
-Getting lost in Alexandria, liked it.
-Georgetown,never get tired of it.
-Cafe Asia fun
-Chinatown is so clean, funny homeless people.

NEVER AGAIN..

-Chinatown Bus to NyC,rather pay amtrak fees or/airfare to get there.
But everyone must experience it..
-Subway isn't for any germophobes.

August Rain

Im blogging and i have 10 mins to do it.Lol!

So maybe i haven't accomplish much this summer. Its coming to an end. Im loving the rain since it's been triple digit degrees here. I've been worrying about my student loans. Hoping & praying it will pull through. Im ready to get my shit together and finish my education at Ou. Yes, i've opted to stay in the state. I figured i can't be picky considering im broke. So Dc will have to someday wait for my residency. But for now Boomer Sooner Bitches. I can't look back at the mistakes i've made during my younger years because I was a complete different person back than. Though, i do ask myself "If only i did this or did that", I wouldn't be in this predicament.
But to the contrary, im proud that i have a good work ethic even though its starting to wear on me. But who wouldn't? I never expected to be working 40/hr weeks out of high school when i should be joining Phi Delta Kappa. I have gotten to see what my future would be like if I choose to be a Doctor, a nurse, a rad-tech. In all honesty, it has been very scenic.

travels..

I do have a very wonderous mind! I always seem to have an ideal destination that i would like to visit. This time it is GREECE, don't me wrong i've always wanted to go there from reading all the gods & goddess during history in grade school to watching the movie sisters of traveling pants..its just beautigul and both incredibly rich in history!

Heres some pictures. I would like to visit. If you have any suggestions of where to go or distinctive places to see, feel free to place your input :)!

Forum Romanum


Colosseum


Capitoline Museum


Trevi Fountain!


Vatican City


St. Peter's Basilica



Michelangelo's stunning ceiling @ Sistine Chapel!


Sorrento


the ancient streets of Pompeii the volcano collapsed higher roof-lines and buried Pompeii under many meters of ash and pumice, and it was lost for nearly 1700 years before its accidental rediscovery in 1748!



Delphi, Greece on the slopes of Mount Parnassus


Athens, Greece!





Until then.....time to work and save save save! lol

its july..

Wow, time sure does fly. Summer is half way over and i have not done anything utterly completeley amazing. All work,no play. My fourth of july was spent catching up on sleep. All i can say it was sure hot as hell out today. I was outside for 45 mins and i turned into a peanut from my off white..YaY..im sure half day out should do the trick to turn into a sexy brown..my natural color..lol.

My summer consisted of so far..
-black and red party that almost made me go back to swoon him..
-getting braces
-contemplate about med school
-los cabos,mexico in december
-student loan
-pos 2nd job again?
-drive out of tulsa with good company and good music..

i need to get drunk, well i want to. I want to free my mind..=)

This is it for now..

fate - the will or principle or determining cause by which things in general are believed to come to be as they are or events to happen as they do.


So im all about living life to the fullest these days. Despite that i work 7 days a week, i thought i would get off the horse and just finally live life. Thus, what have i gotten out of this? Catching up on movies, spending money, and most of all enjoying the accompaniement of good friends. Last night, I went to this local annual thing called "Mayfest". Its for arts/musical lovers. Oh i didn't think i would have so much fun. But i did. Im sucker for paintings. I missed out on this for years. Now that i have seen it. It goes to show that tulsa has some hidden things that only a person would explore and end up enjoying it. Of course i really wanted to buy some paintings but due to the financial matter. There was no way i could afford it. i did see some that i wanted. I did have a chance to talk to a couple of artist, which i did fall in love with there work. They're both locals, how exciting is that! This artist, hes name is Ty Kelly is based in okc. Which is great because its only a couple hours away. He does these grid works on canvas for commision. I love how each block tells a story. He's other works are pretty cool to, sees how uses hes coast to coast travel for inspiration. I just love how the colors he uses in hes work is very loud. Heres a couple of samples. credits tykelly.com.




the first picture is called "star light volare", and the second is labeled as "Five",(hence see the number)

*buds, cute,sexy? what? buy or not buy

its wednesday, half way through the week. 5 more days left till im done with my 2nd job. I regret to say, i should of left when i had planned. I feel more miserable there. I am way to burnt out. I need to recoop. I think i can make it if i make myself. But with the negativity brewing up. I can see the effects it has on my other job. Im looking forward to the vacation i have. Which i shouldn't look at since its still far off. I need to focus on the things thats more important. So many things are happening in which i can't really convey into words. But maybe this is what they call "mid quarter life's crisis". Yet, im not 25 years of age yet. I think im bored, and in need to find something to keep me busy. Keep my brain stimulated, and goal oriented. Theres so many things i need to accomplish. Why can't i achieve the once i need to achieve? mMm, somethings have to got to change soon because i don't think i can keep going the way i do. One moment im gun-ho about it, then next im not even trying..eeeh. Its so much easier being a kid. Yup i said it!

im hiding out. im in dire need to have zen in my life,mind and body.
New york trip is canceled for the summer. I need to stay focus and save. Something to work towards to Viva la Pari..Yeah seriously. Party life is not what i may want right now. But i want to go on a path that i will feel fufilled and complete. I need to find my muse..=)

relieved

My dad is okay, he will be okay. Yesterday was just a coicindence, i had a flash of him being where he was and bam he was there. All sorts of emo came rushing in. Im just glad it wasn't the thing they think it is. But i won't rest assured till i see the test results. Why does it take a scare to realize things in life. I should know time and time again. Life is to short..


June:
______

Nyc-possibly?
Ct-possibly?
Albany-possibly?
Classes resume
no more 2nd job..


i love my family..

i need a vacation..;)

Lies...

I find it amazing how some people are just compulsive manipulative liars. I can understand little white lies to get you out of trouble, but when it comes down to it, being honest and open about certain things, serious things, no matter how much it may portray your image...it's actually a lot easier to forgive afterward and move on with your life.

It's redundant, it's appalling, and it will continue to hurt people.

I'm constantly searching for the truth, and no matter how much I want to trust, it just doesn't adhere anymore. And the thing about me is that I am one of those people who will bend over backwards and forgive people...and for what? To be hurt again? I bluntly accept people back into my life and go way in over my head to do things that will in the end hurt me. I'm nonchalant, I continue to make the same mistakes, in different stages of my life, and they all hurt just about the same.

The past is the past, but sometimes you need to dig up the bones and come forward before you continue to hurt not only me, but others.

I'm not guilty. I've done nothing wrong.

Ok.

It's your turn.

"take chances, make mistakes. that's how you grow. pain nourishes your courage. you have to fail in order to practice being brave." -mary tyler moore

Another easter has came. nothing like a monday morning listening to some music before i get ready for work. So the song by journey came on " open arms" and it reminded me of an old friend of mine. Whom i found out a few days ago will be moving out and starting a new life in california. I was hanging out with my older brother of mine and he confirm of he's departure which would be today. A somber cloud came over me, reminiscing about the past years of when we use to be close friends. Just thinking about the good memories we had hanging out.


brb<<

march madness

Its nearly the middle of march. I've been back for 5 days now. It seems that getway was a long time ago. Im feeling like i need to hustle..I don't like this feeling not one bit, but there isn't anything i can do about it. I have put myself in this situation and im really trusting god that every will be okay. =/, My bills are outragious and yes i need to ramble about it. Thats why after class today i will be calling job#2 and offering them my services on the week day for a few hours. It all adds up, believe me. ( i think these are all fragments and run-on sentence, grr) Anyway, if my manager pulls through and says yes to come in..I calculated that if i did that the next 2 months they i can knock 2 of my ccs down. im praying to the almighty thats the one of the only 2 he can help me on besides giving me strength.
I've hung up these little cards of mine to a safe place.

assumptions make an ass out of you and i

nothing irritates me more than stereo-typical assumptions, for example i repeat i am not a NURSE! Just because of my ethnicity doesn't mean i am in that field. Granite, i am in the medical field but im staying clear of that field. It takes some special people to do that work and have immense respect for them. But lets face it, if you can't hack it don't try and oh yeah radiology is like the best field to be in..hahaha (feel the sarcasm)

helloOoo!!!

Another unpredictable weather with oklahoma. We're suppose to get an ice storm tonight. Im most definitley am ready for the warm weather. So its been a few weeks since i've lost blogged. Catch you up!

-still working 2 jobs
-rad class im actually very ecstatic about my result of my first test.
-counting down to D.C., 7 more days baby...
-I turned 24..oh geez!
-Medical School possibly?
-Which means, Get cracking on my gpa, classes. This is rediculously annoying on my part!=/
-I still need to learn how to make better choices.
-Keep my feet grounded and finally pay off all my cc's. Im definitley focusing on that at the moment. Im hanging them up. Untill its safe to do so.
-I love god, he's given me the strength to go on and to keep on going when i wanted to just give up.
-my family, who i love and adore. The once that are here and the once up above they are amazing.

oh yeah, did i mention 7 more days till D.C.

Winter...

Its freezing, i went to look for a new jacket for my upcoming getaway to the east coast. Low and behold the stores have the spring/summer line out. At first thought, are you kidding me? its 30 degrees and you have a a bathing suit up? Its oklahoma...

on to other things. Its been 3 weeks and counting with my second job. I'll admit that is some crucial thing. Considering how my schedule is already limited as it is. 40/hr week as well as school. To add another 20 hours of work..its madness. But im dealing atleast till i get my finance stable or paid off. boo..

So, god is working in mysterious ways. Im keeping my faith in him. I'll fill in the details as soon as it is all gets clear-er..

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,

And lean not on your own understanding;

In all your ways acknoledge Him,

And He shall direct your paths.

Do not be wise in your own eyes;

-PROVERBS 3:5-5


These past few days has been testy to say the least. But kepted praying and asking him for strength. Well my prayers have been answer to that part of my worries. As of now i am working 2 jobs. 7 days a week,56 hours a week, 204 hours in a month. I prayed for help with things financially, and he lead me to a 2nd job. Granite its nothing grand, but i am grateful. I went back to food service @ a retirement community. Which im really hoping to gain some insights because i feel like im lacking. Im pretty excited actually.

So, my dad is my hero. Tonight, i read he's files from years ago. This man has been in remission for 15 years from Squamos Cell Carcinoma, Stage-4. They call him a walking miracle. He's battle was actually one of the influence in why i wanted to get into the field of Radiology. As we were talking over dinner, it wasn't anything i have heard before about he's time with that deadly disease. Except, tonight he had shared that he could never get another radiated exam again. For the reason that at that time, the dosage was so extreme they had nicknamed it "megadosage". It came into my mind that i wanted to read he's medical file. So i asked, of course he shared the stack of papers that was neatly put into a manila envelope. I was browsing through it reading every detailed of the diagnosis, the treatments, the effects of he's therapy that will explain why he has the allergens that he goes through now. In amazed of gratefulness, i know i can never be even close to the heroic person my dad is. Words can't even describe how this man is respected by not only me ,my brothers, and my other family members. I just cherish him, not only because of this, nor because he raised us with the thought of all the trials of life that have greeted us, but because he's truly one of a kind. He has that sense of charm that no one can get away from, he's corny jokes, he's funny little laugh when he gets tickled at something. I love my pa, thats just the way it is...

=)

random things

life is too short to not be in love.

the kind of love that gives you butterflies.

the kind of love that keeps you up at night.

this is the love we should have for life.


burr, its cold outside. 20 degrees to be exact. i have approximately 7 mins till i need to be ready. Although i have 45 mins to get to work. I shall need that 15 mins to warm up my baby. I wasn't sure if i was going to make a resolution this year. But somethings that have stuck and also that is nice to have a reminder.

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS and THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO:
- eat healthier; focus on having a healthy lifestyle and diet...treat my body right for once
- adventure. do new things and step out of my box
- focus and finish. to concentrate on a few things and follow them through
- prioritize. make more time for my family, friends, me! - relax and live! take time out to breathe yet live each moment (stress free).

Classes resume again next week, i still yet to buy some of my books. Im very much looking forward to them. I need focus and something to stimulate my mind. This year is very different. This year, my girls aren't in reaching distance. This year We're all spread out from different state. I miss them terribly. If this is not hard to phatom, its like putting me on a bike strolling through a long winding road on a foggy morning. No one to giggle with,no one i can turn to and expect them to push me down that direction...Its life, but for now i know i can always bust out my cell phone bug them..lol..


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1 Timothy 4:12
"Don't let anyone look down on
you because you areyoung,
but set an example for the believers
in speech, in life, in love, in faith, and in purity."


PARADOX: I am the black and the white...rarely the in between. Sometimes I want to listen and absorb insight. Other times I want to jump at the world and make my presence known. Sometimes I want people to make that substantial effort to penetrate through the walls that I build around my emotions. Other times, I'd much rather be
left alone.
I'm a paradox within myself. I'm an unsolved puzzle; a road

in

different
directions.
If you choose, drive
down
my
road......

but keep your seatbelt on.

--Eric Calvario

survey for 07

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before? Stay true to myself and keep up with the fact you don't got to be drizunk to have fun..

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
honestly, i don't remember what my resolution was. I think it was something close to like be nice to people even if you don't like them. Which i did..

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Hahaha, yeah i think the whole tulsa area did. Seriously.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes, r.i.p. tita isabel

5. What countries did you visit?
none this year, next year..

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
Concentration on my studies, As well as achieve my goals in my dieting..haha

7. What date(s) from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I would have to say, 3.17, 6.10.,8.31.
Those were the times the girls got together and partied. I miss them..

Oct-2007
family time in vegas
partying with buds..
Nothing can compare to the partying we did, my two bros and cousins
5 clubs, drunk gay couple fighting in the hood and Dean Martin & paradise Avenue, will remain a very fond memory for me and the pan that buds tainted in my car..=)



8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
courage

9. What was your biggest failure?
none.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?Luckily no.

11. What was the best thing you bought?Again..presents for friends and family.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?Cousins<3333

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? money hungry people..

14. Where did most of your money go?School...credit card bills

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
my new car, fully loaded Accord coupe

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
A lot of songs i can dance to "Gimme more" "Piece of Me" "shhawty got low low low low" "Her bodys like a cyclone and she can move it all night long" .. lol cliche songs. " Hate that i love you" by rihanna and neyo"Big Girls Dont Cry" by Fergie

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Wiser
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?focus on myself. achieve my goals

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?Procrastinate.

20. How will you be spending Christmas? i worked, than had family time

22. Did you fall in love in 2007? can't say i did..

23. How many one-night stands?oh my..

24. What was your favorite TV program?No time for tv. but project runway stiilll awweesome.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?Hating is a waste of time.

26. What was the best book you read?i know the worst... school Textbooks! ughhh . ill burn them. or resell. lol i need the money hahah

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?classical, rhythm, soul, lounge, relaxing shit.

28. What did you want and got?
my car, job change that was a career advancement.

29. What did you want and not get?materialistc things..haha
i always go for necessities.


30. What was your favorite film of this year?uhhmm.. ionno. ill catch up on that.


31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Goodness, i turned 23. Went to dinner with mai and mary. since the rest of the girls were out of state getting settled.

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Getting into the Rad Program

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
Hahah..uhm that is my downfall..when you work 40hr weeks and all you know is scrubs. heel is def out of the question

34. What kept you sane?Knowing that other people are not in my control as hard as i try to make things right. Taking INITIATIVE for whatever obstacle that comes through. Listening to the two sides of every situation, every story before making a opinion/decision.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?I respect Natalie Portman. Shes amazing. Like my own values, I trust my instinct. She quotes, " You can make the choice to have joy and spread joy.":

36. What political issue stirred you the most?The death of Benazir Bhutto.

37. Who did you miss?the girls..and the bodyguard he's fun..

38. Who was the best new person you met?the "party" side of my cousins...pretty damn awesome.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007."Its okay to desire someone with standards in mind because know how much good we can offer in return.." "Demand Respect because you give Respect in Return."

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year... i have yet to find.