Sunday, May 18, 2008

fate - the will or principle or determining cause by which things in general are believed to come to be as they are or events to happen as they do.


So im all about living life to the fullest these days. Despite that i work 7 days a week, i thought i would get off the horse and just finally live life. Thus, what have i gotten out of this? Catching up on movies, spending money, and most of all enjoying the accompaniement of good friends. Last night, I went to this local annual thing called "Mayfest". Its for arts/musical lovers. Oh i didn't think i would have so much fun. But i did. Im sucker for paintings. I missed out on this for years. Now that i have seen it. It goes to show that tulsa has some hidden things that only a person would explore and end up enjoying it. Of course i really wanted to buy some paintings but due to the financial matter. There was no way i could afford it. i did see some that i wanted. I did have a chance to talk to a couple of artist, which i did fall in love with there work. They're both locals, how exciting is that! This artist, hes name is Ty Kelly is based in okc. Which is great because its only a couple hours away. He does these grid works on canvas for commision. I love how each block tells a story. He's other works are pretty cool to, sees how uses hes coast to coast travel for inspiration. I just love how the colors he uses in hes work is very loud. Heres a couple of samples. credits tykelly.com.




the first picture is called "star light volare", and the second is labeled as "Five",(hence see the number)

Wednesday, May 14, 2008







*buds, cute,sexy? what? buy or not buy
its wednesday, half way through the week. 5 more days left till im done with my 2nd job. I regret to say, i should of left when i had planned. I feel more miserable there. I am way to burnt out. I need to recoop. I think i can make it if i make myself. But with the negativity brewing up. I can see the effects it has on my other job. Im looking forward to the vacation i have. Which i shouldn't look at since its still far off. I need to focus on the things thats more important. So many things are happening in which i can't really convey into words. But maybe this is what they call "mid quarter life's crisis". Yet, im not 25 years of age yet. I think im bored, and in need to find something to keep me busy. Keep my brain stimulated, and goal oriented. Theres so many things i need to accomplish. Why can't i achieve the once i need to achieve? mMm, somethings have to got to change soon because i don't think i can keep going the way i do. One moment im gun-ho about it, then next im not even trying..eeeh. Its so much easier being a kid. Yup i said it!

Friday, May 9, 2008

im hiding out. im in dire need to have zen in my life,mind and body.
New york trip is canceled for the summer. I need to stay focus and save. Something to work towards to Viva la Pari..Yeah seriously. Party life is not what i may want right now. But i want to go on a path that i will feel fufilled and complete. I need to find my muse..=)

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

relieved

My dad is okay, he will be okay. Yesterday was just a coicindence, i had a flash of him being where he was and bam he was there. All sorts of emo came rushing in. Im just glad it wasn't the thing they think it is. But i won't rest assured till i see the test results. Why does it take a scare to realize things in life. I should know time and time again. Life is to short..


June:
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Nyc-possibly?
Ct-possibly?
Albany-possibly?
Classes resume
no more 2nd job..


i love my family..

Thursday, May 1, 2008

i need a vacation..;)